motion sickness
japanese stuff :
do you ever remember writing a test or exam at school and you'd come out and discuss it with your friends even though your brain knew it was a really dumb idea? i'd inevitably have different answers from everyone and then worry about what exactly i was thinking. yesterday was like that. i found some of the questions in the english test quite thought-provoking whilst everyone else thought it was breezy (damn you laura with your high IQ!) and my professor from wits ended up interviewing me which should have made it easier (damn you john with your love for weaponry!) but it made it surreal. so here's how it went : i don't know. all i can do is wait. after matric, in that period where you sit around waiting for your results to be published in the national newspaper for the entire world to see (including your strangely competitive afrikaans family in ermelo who would like their precious ones to be the cleverest in the family... yes people are sad like that) and you slowly convince yourself that you failed. i am in that place. slowly.failing. ;)
wits:
so wits is taking me on a lovely rollercoaster ride of deception, lies and just plain confusion. right now i am not taking classes and am most probably not going to be allowed to do masters by research because the silly woman in politics is having a hissy fit. according to her, they do not want research people. i am not nearly qualified. they cannot give me money. firstly, wits is trying to be a research based university in a few years. secondly, i am qualified. thirdly, i am on a full scholarship and i am going to be working my butt off in japan to be able to shoot my documentary in the sudan. she says 'no.' the professor who agreed to be my supervisor is going to talk to her. and if she still says no, i will study japanese for 5 months. am strangely calm. sigh.
i want to get off of this rollercoaster. its not fun anymore and i'm starting to feel a little nauseous.
do you ever remember writing a test or exam at school and you'd come out and discuss it with your friends even though your brain knew it was a really dumb idea? i'd inevitably have different answers from everyone and then worry about what exactly i was thinking. yesterday was like that. i found some of the questions in the english test quite thought-provoking whilst everyone else thought it was breezy (damn you laura with your high IQ!) and my professor from wits ended up interviewing me which should have made it easier (damn you john with your love for weaponry!) but it made it surreal. so here's how it went : i don't know. all i can do is wait. after matric, in that period where you sit around waiting for your results to be published in the national newspaper for the entire world to see (including your strangely competitive afrikaans family in ermelo who would like their precious ones to be the cleverest in the family... yes people are sad like that) and you slowly convince yourself that you failed. i am in that place. slowly.failing. ;)
wits:
so wits is taking me on a lovely rollercoaster ride of deception, lies and just plain confusion. right now i am not taking classes and am most probably not going to be allowed to do masters by research because the silly woman in politics is having a hissy fit. according to her, they do not want research people. i am not nearly qualified. they cannot give me money. firstly, wits is trying to be a research based university in a few years. secondly, i am qualified. thirdly, i am on a full scholarship and i am going to be working my butt off in japan to be able to shoot my documentary in the sudan. she says 'no.' the professor who agreed to be my supervisor is going to talk to her. and if she still says no, i will study japanese for 5 months. am strangely calm. sigh.
i want to get off of this rollercoaster. its not fun anymore and i'm starting to feel a little nauseous.
posted by sarah @ 9:33 AM
10 Comments:
"i am going to be working my butt off in japan to be able to shoot my documentary in the sudan"?
You = so very very cool.
I'm sure it was fine. And think about it, if you go, we'll be happy for you, and if you don't we'll be happy for US because we'll miss you like crazy if you go!
And Wits is being stupid. Surprise surprise...
If they don't want you :( then they'll really regret it when you win an Oscar with George Clooney and a nobel prize...
Look at it this way; either way, you win!
1) you do your masters!
OR
2) you go to Japan!
You're sorted!
I wouldn't worry Sarah. I realise that it's easier said than done, but it won't help. All you need to do is have a little faith, beat up a pillow with the woman from humanities' face on it and have a piece of chocolate. You'll feel much better.
And even if Wits doesn't take you, you are welcome to live in the lab with us anytime!
And, in the hopes of making you feel better, I am removing the photos with you on Facebook.
Aren't I nice ;P
If your supervisor can't set this silly woman straight, maybe you should write to Belinda Bozzolli (the DVC for research) making her aware that said silly woman isn't working in the spirit of the research plan the university approved. Get your supervisor to ok the letter though.
Hope it works out.
Don't sweat that interview! They just want to see that you're not a dof jaap who can't speak english!
The way I figure it, with our old lecturer on the committee, if we don't get in this year, then we never will :p So there's no use stressing!
Just an enticing note on Wits MA:
IR will let you do your MA by research, with merit award, while in Japan. As long as you send in some chapters every so often, they're happy.
So don't stress. It'll all work out in the way it's meant to!
go to japan so i can crash on your floor next time i'm there.
deal?
sounds good to me
i agree with hannah. you are very cool. and you definitely have two amazing plans which can both work out in your lifetime.
if you go to japan and i go back to korea, maybe we could meet. maybe we could visit dokdo, the tiny island that the koreans and japanese fight over. that would be surreal.
it's terrible that your school is being stupid though. it's hard to wait for people to be reasonable. it's maddening to deal with unreasonable people. i feel frustrated when my apartment managers can't figure out the right laundry key to give me. that only impacts my being able to wear my favorite clothes whenever i want, not my life. hang in there. it'll work out.
i ALWAYS do that after exams. it irritates people (you in particular hehe), but i can't help it cos i have to find out if clever people like you gave the same answers of me, cos then i feel clever too.
but if you don't, then i know i got the wrong answer, and so then i fret.
When are you coming to Japan?! I'm leaving Korea at the end of April!
Just remember, Japan is as expensive as poo!!! Make sure you buy a train pass before you get there. You will save a lot of money.
There is also a cheap 3 hour ferry to Korea! You should definately check it out and come over for a visit.
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